and AGAIN. I have an ish-relationship... but you know... life? it happens. His name is Sam and he makes me smile a lot. He lives pretty far away so its officially complicated... on Facebook... lots of lolz. kk enough of my un-vulcan like emotions.

I have a Job now. Its the best. I play with Legos...

I cant wait till robotics starts getting active again... I really want to build stuff but my parents... as usual... dont support my urges. i mean... ive wanted to build a tree house since i was 7 years old... i live on a farm... you'd think they would indulge that one...

I HATE Summer. I want to go back to school and take notes and read books and be medicated every day so i can read those books really really fast.

I got in a car crash. It was bad. I caught a criminal. Im sort of awesome. End of story.

Otakon... in a word... FUCKIN EXHAUSTING!!!!! i know... it required 2 words... but i bought a lot of cool stuff like a corset and BUTTONS... i love buttons. [=

boy golly its been a while since ive been on here...
i feel like im a whole new person from the girl who used to watch you're art religiously and write every day and draw pictures and doodles. i guess in a way ive lost my artistic compulsions... but the compulsion was replaces with something far greater, which i like to call talent. when i write something now its beyond just a need to write, its my soul being captured and thrown out into the world. the things i write now are more painful, more romantic, more real than anything i wrote in the beginning. ive come a long way. Im much more... expressive about more things than just pain and hate. Its a beautiful depressing world out there and im gonna love every disgusting breath of life i take and im going to write it, so you can see it too.

i love me and i love the darkness, and most of all, I love you guys!

p.s.- ive decided to devote my life to becoming a Trekkie ^_^

THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT.